Beloved,
Look at me. Look into my eyes.
Can't you see that I am feeling the same feelings that you are?
Your heart breaks, so does mine. You cry, so do I.
But I will go one step further.
I will hold your heart in my hands, I will reach out to wipe your tears.
I will go one step further, because I can, because I care, because I am your Father.
I will hold you as long as it takes for you to heal. It's okay, cry. Let them all out. Tell me how much it hurts.
If you can't talk any more, just be still, know that I hear your heart.
This is how life twists and turn.
I never intend these things to happen to you, my love. But they do, because of the dark stain of human race.
Just remember, I have redeemed you. I have heard your cries, I will never turn my face on you.
Come to me as bare as you are, as raw as you are.
要记住，我非常爱你。
Sunday, July 22, 2012
Sunday, July 8, 2012
Opposite attracts
I got my heart crush was when a guy told me he did not like me the way I liked him.
The 14 year old me pretty much sank into depression.
I dreaded hearing his name, even though the sight of him still has the power to melt me into a puddle.
I resented him, deleted him off my msn list. Cut all contact with him, but every time I pass by him in school or anything relate to him, I slow down.
Yes sure the heart hurts, but the heart still yearns for it. Isn't it weird how we are all wired?
Thank God He was there to bring me out of it.
Although I didn't know it back then, I know something healed me. I grew better. I grew healthier.
Until one day, I realise I could go on with life without pausing at anything that reminds me of him.
This leads me to be overjoyed when I finally learn how much a creator love me.
I have been taught that Jesus loves me ever since I was 6 years old and attended Sunday school. But it NEVER occur to me His love is so pure. He doesn't hurt me like how some boys would. He wants a relationship with me unlike the relationship of this world. I never knew how practical this love is.
No guys in the world matter anymore.
I'm glad He revealed His love for me. I'm thankful, with all my heart, that I've gotten His revelation.
But time has an evil way of dulling things. I want to be excited for Your love all over again. I don't want to be distracted. I don't want to be sidetracked.
It's nice when a guy flirts with you. You feel like you're the only girl in the world.
It's nice when a guy gives you all the attention. You feel like you mean something.
It's nice to have these feeling of self-worth, but it's not nice when it's coming from the wrong source.
Boys are wonderful creatures. But they can be a distraction.
Why do we girls fall so easily for these things? I'm sorry, not just any girls.
It's girls who already know You. Girls who are already your daughters.
We still fall for this. It doesn't feel right.
Aren't our identity in You? Shouldn't we already be contented with that?
What are we missing?
The 14 year old me pretty much sank into depression.
I dreaded hearing his name, even though the sight of him still has the power to melt me into a puddle.
I resented him, deleted him off my msn list. Cut all contact with him, but every time I pass by him in school or anything relate to him, I slow down.
Yes sure the heart hurts, but the heart still yearns for it. Isn't it weird how we are all wired?
Thank God He was there to bring me out of it.
Although I didn't know it back then, I know something healed me. I grew better. I grew healthier.
Until one day, I realise I could go on with life without pausing at anything that reminds me of him.
This leads me to be overjoyed when I finally learn how much a creator love me.
I have been taught that Jesus loves me ever since I was 6 years old and attended Sunday school. But it NEVER occur to me His love is so pure. He doesn't hurt me like how some boys would. He wants a relationship with me unlike the relationship of this world. I never knew how practical this love is.
No guys in the world matter anymore.
I'm glad He revealed His love for me. I'm thankful, with all my heart, that I've gotten His revelation.
But time has an evil way of dulling things. I want to be excited for Your love all over again. I don't want to be distracted. I don't want to be sidetracked.
It's nice when a guy flirts with you. You feel like you're the only girl in the world.
It's nice when a guy gives you all the attention. You feel like you mean something.
It's nice to have these feeling of self-worth, but it's not nice when it's coming from the wrong source.
Boys are wonderful creatures. But they can be a distraction.
Why do we girls fall so easily for these things? I'm sorry, not just any girls.
It's girls who already know You. Girls who are already your daughters.
We still fall for this. It doesn't feel right.
Aren't our identity in You? Shouldn't we already be contented with that?
What are we missing?
Monday, July 2, 2012
Broken bonds
".. mend the broken bonds caused by pride."
What are your pride?
I know a man who is a powerful, rich king. He ruled the lands and the seven seas. Every creature that has breath know him by name.
He also had a relationship with a lady.
This lady, even though she was not well educated, even though she was not the fairest maiden in the land, he loved her. He looked past all her flaws and all her imperfections and kept loving her.
He loved her with a pure heart. He told her she was his beloved.
His generals and all his royal consultants told him he was a fool (although they did not say the exact words, they hinted it) for loving her. They held banquets to show him the other beauties of the land. They wanted a future queen who was fitted for their king.
Now, don't think so harshly of the king's generals, they have the right to look down on the lady. Because even though she was loved by the king, she was never completely faithful to him. She was proud she was the king's love. But she had was also careless, she follow her emotions too often. She cheated on the him one too many times, just to show that she can attract men of all sorts. She broke his heart countless times. Yet every time, he took her back.
One day, she met a man. This man was fine looking, he was a sweet talker. He whispered all the wonderful little things the lady wants to hear. The man starts telling her lies. She believed him. As if the king was not good enough for her, she was lead astray to this stranger's home.
It turns out the stranger despise the king. He has tried countless ways to bring down the king. But none of his plans ever worked out. He could never bring down a king as powerful as this.
Until the day the man learn of the king's lover, how he loved her with pure heart and how she is unfaithful to him.
She was tied up, bounded like a slave girl in the man's house when the king burst through the doors in search of his lost lover.
Of all the heartbreaks his beloved has give him, this was the greatest.
What are your pride?
I know a man who is a powerful, rich king. He ruled the lands and the seven seas. Every creature that has breath know him by name.
He also had a relationship with a lady.
This lady, even though she was not well educated, even though she was not the fairest maiden in the land, he loved her. He looked past all her flaws and all her imperfections and kept loving her.
He loved her with a pure heart. He told her she was his beloved.
His generals and all his royal consultants told him he was a fool (although they did not say the exact words, they hinted it) for loving her. They held banquets to show him the other beauties of the land. They wanted a future queen who was fitted for their king.
Now, don't think so harshly of the king's generals, they have the right to look down on the lady. Because even though she was loved by the king, she was never completely faithful to him. She was proud she was the king's love. But she had was also careless, she follow her emotions too often. She cheated on the him one too many times, just to show that she can attract men of all sorts. She broke his heart countless times. Yet every time, he took her back.
One day, she met a man. This man was fine looking, he was a sweet talker. He whispered all the wonderful little things the lady wants to hear. The man starts telling her lies. She believed him. As if the king was not good enough for her, she was lead astray to this stranger's home.
It turns out the stranger despise the king. He has tried countless ways to bring down the king. But none of his plans ever worked out. He could never bring down a king as powerful as this.
Until the day the man learn of the king's lover, how he loved her with pure heart and how she is unfaithful to him.
She was tied up, bounded like a slave girl in the man's house when the king burst through the doors in search of his lost lover.
Of all the heartbreaks his beloved has give him, this was the greatest.
Facing his enemy, the king uttered only one sentence calmly, "How much?"
The man laughs hysterically,
"I can't believe this. Why do you want her? LOOK AT HER!
She's cheap. She cheats on you. She ran from you."
The king just stare at the man, and said again with cold eyes,
"How much?"
He kept laughing, saying
"You don't want her. Trust me, even I don't want her if it wasn't to lure you here."
The king finally roared "HOW MUCH DO YOU WANT?"
The man stopped laughing. He stop smiling. He came to the realisation that the king was no fool, the king meant to give him anything he wants in exchange of the silly girl's life.
The man's lips suddenly curved up and from those evil lips comes out the words
"All your glory, all your tears, all your sweat and all. your. blood."
Imagine, if you had everything in the universe (you probably couldn't), all the money and all the power, would it be easy for you to put down the status that you have?
I guess you probably know what the king chose.
He chose to give up his glory.
He chose to be weak for his enemy so that He can buy his lover back with his blood.
The King chose to put down his pride. Even though He had no reason to do so.
The lady opened her eyes to see the King looking down to her.
"Why? I broke your trust. Your heart. You should've left me to die." she whispered weakly.
"Our relationship was broken, but what am I if I just let it be? I will not be who I claim you are to me, my beloved"
"But why me? Why die for me?"
"To show you how serious I am when I say I love you. My love is so deep, you have no idea.."
It rang in her head.
"..you have no idea.."
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